"Recovery from an eating disorder is usually provisional - most of us who do recover still have it lurking somewhere in the back of our minds. It lives there quietly for years. But if the pressure is enough, it comes out. We fall back on it. It is as old and familiar as a longtime lover. We aren’t afraid of it. It stills our thoughts. We know it. When we are at points in our lives where we know little else, the eating disorder is our long lost oldest friend."